Till that moment he had never been into a tavern, but now he felt giddy and was tormented by a burning thirst.
He worried and tormented himself trying to remember, moaned, flew into a rage, or sank into awful, intolerable terror.
In that letter she reproached him with great heat and indignation for the baseness of his behaviour in regard to Marfa Petrovna, reminding him that he was the father and head of a family and telling him how infamous it was of him to torment and make unhappy a defenceless girl, unhappy enough already.
"Mother, you are quite pale, don’t distress yourself, darling," said Dounia caressing her, then with flashing eyes she added: "He ought to be happy at seeing you, and you are tormenting yourself so."
She did not scream, but she fixed her eyes on her tormentor and watched every movement he made.
But at the same time he knew now and knew for certain that, although it filled her with dread and suffering, yet she had a tormenting desire to read and to read to him that he might hear it, and to read now whatever might come of it!
Another, much more important anxiety tormented him—it concerned himself, but in a different, more vital way.
This idea sometimes even tormented his dreams, but it had never presented itself so vividly to him as on his way to Svidrigailov.